Greetings.

Blessings.

As I said here earlier -

there was a knock on the "Door" of my life.

Here is the update to that earlier entry -

Beware that Knock!

It may well be the Lord & Lady knocking.

It might just be Somebody Else knocking.

That work only lasted two (2) weeks.

Be very careful to whom to answer the knock on the door of your life.

It may not be the Lord and Lady.

It might be Loki the Trickster - or somebody/something worse!

So thus it wasn't.....

Blessings Be.

Paganus the Greybeard

11:28 pacific

02-20-2008

Greetings.

Blessings.

Classes are long since over.

Certificates are to be mailed.

Last week I was doing Job Searches.

Last Frid's day Divine Intervention tossed an

entirely unexpected opportunity my way.

When the Goddess or God knocks on the door

of your life - answer that knock!

I answered that knock - and I am working again.

Today was the first day.

Let's do this.

Let's rock and roll this dance.

 

Blessings Be to All & EveryOne.

Paganus the Greybeard

17:59/5:59 p pacific

02-05-2008

 

 

 

 

Hey this is my shout out to the Rave.

Didn't realize that I would miss your company so much.

We need to seriously plan this. You do realize that if and when oscar meyer is released it will not go totally to the target. Ray is a bag of dirt-literally but he is going to be released and all the dealing and wheeling will not do us any good.

I have been talking with A since returning here. Yes, we all have to buckle down and return to what and who we are. After this is said and done you know what the outcome will be. You will not be able to help the king of fools.

I just hope that we all really know what we are doing. lol Not that we ever really have. It would be nice if we could actually say that just once we did.

Are you going to pre-warn anyone? Or just let it loose?

Just thought that I would let you know that I really hate this blog here. Something about it take a long time to load and it just sucks.

Not to mention some people are having a hard time joining and all they can do is do the shout box. So, without further adeu I am working on a more private blog. It will be for invite only to only those that are within the inner circle.

No outsiders will be there unless invited. I think that will be good ;)

Now, do not bug me about when it will be up(DEVON) it just will be :)

Ok I have to share this one.


I have been having this dream for two weeks about this man. Good looking and a police office (No not dick) who lives in a neighboring town. It's been nagging and nagging me. I mean he comes and talks, laughs and leaves.

I have also had day visions of this person doing things. Nothing gross. haha

Anyway, a friend of mine sent a site for me to look at because another friend was there and thought I would get a laugh. I log on and the first person I see is this guy. No lie. I started shaking all over. Here he is in the flesh. I mean I knew him. Not in real life. Anyway, he lives in the same town as in my dreams and he is a retired police officer. How weird is that????????

So, I think OK I am going to write to him and ask him a question or two. I put it off. He wrote me a note and asked a couple of questions that only one would know if they were in the dream. NO he is not one of us at all.

Weird????????????

My cards told me 1 year+ that I would meet a person that would rock my socks. Looking at the pic and talking I am wondering about this.

This is a crime against nature

Thanks guys really. I did finally get some rest and relaxation.

Mentally though this is not easy. I mean it. I am trying to "get a life" as I was told so nicely by a few people but it is really hard to move forward when it is I guess something that maybe isnt all that what I want. I mean maybe as time goes by it will get better and easier but for now I have so many doubts.

Getting ready to just walk away completely from everything for awhile and just not think.

Carolyn did a good job but she said it wasnt working due to some other things. Great. Like I didnt know that already???? Breaking my heart. I really do hope that by my letting all this go Michael will be happier. Maybe that is the problem. I am so used to his happiness I have forgotten what mine is.

Not in a good mood right now. I'll be fine on Monday and back to working and all my occult things.

OH! He and I were talking on the phone this evening, I was about to tell him something about what he was talking about. Guess what happened? No, I didnt get struck by lightening but just as bad. My nose had the most terrible pain, like a sinus pain. I started in again to tell him and I had a small trickle of blood. When I stopped talking and changed teh subject the pain and nose bleed stopped.

Now, GBH that is a true sign of "shut the F up" I do not suffer from nose bleeds and when it happened I knew exactly what it was. I was warned NOT to tell him. One of the few times I feel very sorry for someone that I can not warn about something.

Just weird is all. Not to mention I have this damn "thing" standing here next to me and it is bugging me. It took me by surprise at first. I kinda jumped then told it to stop it. I mean OK so you want to be seen, I SEE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! **rolling eyes**

Chit Chat later

I am really tired of this new game that we are in. Sleep is disturbed and then disturbed more. I am exhausted to say the least.

I am in  a great mood not that it is taking its toll there just tired mentally more than physically of this attack after attack. Time to re-think the game gang

Ok, first of all you guys all suck ass. Excluding MM. haha

Seriously, I spoke with the Big D. He rather freaked me out and called me on a few things. "A" says we should handle it old style. Now, does this mean we all fly to where he is located and kick his ass? haha

The funny thing is he went out to the market and went into snowtigers store. OK, I laughed until I nearly cried. And like I told him, he would notice? Nothing personal or slanderous in my laughter either. I think right now his being "not" in the "knowing" is his best protection. He described him to a T. He spoke of doing this and that to st and I said go for it. I am not his protector. Going after him and his family is supposed to bring some protection from me? Right. Like I told him he is nothing more than a friend and I will not help him this time. Every time I do I get shit on, as we all know. Besides he is pretty powerful.

Anywhozers my little boozers, this guy wants what he thinks he wants. Kicked the shit out of me on the DP. I am not prone to winning all battles :) He is a pro. I am in love. hahahaha

On the lighter side. My ring is gorgeous! They sized it perfectly and it looks hot.

I took the time away yesterday and did little to nothing on the computer. We spent the time in Hartford shopping. Had a lot of fun really.

I found a perfect ring that will replace the one that I normally wear. That one I plan on putting on Ebay for a penny. No don't laugh I am. haha Not being bitter either. haha

As I see it, the mage of darkness has something up his sleeve. Yes, he has emailed me and I also had a message on the machine. I did not answer either. Stew in your own juices for a bit. Dreams are damn crazy. I change things and this ass wad says "good job" What the hell is that about? Dumb ass

Talked to A a little. Still no decision. I guess I am stewing also. haha

Rene:

Maybe you are to close to the situation to be impartial. :) Heavy sigh. I am fine really. I am coming to terms with the realization of how little I did or did not do. Not surprising but hurtful

You do what you think is your best and find out it is not good enough. I'll tell you if I were a different type of person I would have no self esteem left. I just am amazed how much he loathes me. Should have known. Right? I feel a little displaced but other than that it will be ok.

A lot of shattered dreams, but that is a good thing about dreams. You can build new ones. I will miss that part. Life goes on right?

We can all just try to do our best and at the end of the day you can honestly say you did your best then you are OK. My dieties have placed me where I am supposed to be I guess. Wow, alone with nobody. Gee thanks a lot

What do you think about the mage over there? Rene, want to just screw with this a bit? I mean I know who all the players are and I am sure that you do also. The cereal I roared at. Well, the cheese stands alone. Right?  OMG! We are like that movie the keepers! Oh so coolish. WooHoo a mystical war. That will shake me out of this for sure. Just what the doctor didnt order but screw the doctor. Couldnt tell him anyway. Oh and by the way, I am attacking the mystical tribe so I have to cancel my appt. hahaha

Watch your backs. Especially the dreams. Damn they are good. Especially him. Scary good. Is TP letting loose on this one? Seems that he fit the profile. Damn cant hide even after running