Been a lot crazy here that is for sure. Home for three hours then gone for two. Then back home for two or maybe three hours then gone again. Really hard to get anything accomplished. Yesterday I did stay home during the day to catch up on work. Didnt accomplish that but I did make head way.

We are transferring dad to another hospital where he will be able to have intensive treatments and therapy. Been touch and go really but we just keep plugging away here. Have some very bad days and some good days. He is now up to the year 1957. Some days he slips and is actually in 1996, which is good. With therapy they are hoping he re-gains strength and better speech training. Have to wait and see.

I will be flying to CA to handle legal matters. Not looking forward in that but something that has to be done. I'll be there for 14 days I think. Should give me plenty of time to get things done. I have to start making a list of things, but truthfully I am tired. No, that is an understatement of describing the feeling.

Children are all pulling together and just being the way they are, wonderful. Taking over the things that I do not have time for or forget. Makes it so much easier.

Regarding the Quest matter. Let it go. It was meant to play this way as a learning experience. Renegade pointed out something that was important. Gossip. This is something that we all must overcome. As it is a response from within that needs to be worked on. In looking at it we must distinguish if it was done from malice or simply the need to express information of knowing. Since I see it as it was not malice it is the later. Yet it does not give one the excuse to gossip. I understand and appreciate the actions and there is no true anger as I realize it is normal instinct to "talk".  As those that are on the path to enlightenment we must take the time to consider that there are times when talking about what we hear/read is not the correct action to be taking. We must refrain from the mundane ways if we are to be a step above the grade.
It takes active thought not to submit to the discussing of others and their lives.
Especially if it does not directly effect us we simply should close our minds and mouths to what we hear and not go forth to add any more to the tale that we were told.
It is not easy to do. Requiring work from the inside. A mental re-training

Well, now that I have said that. Did you hear about.........  hahaha

Take care one and all

Blessings & Greetings!

It is posted.
"Mabon ap Modron 2006" is posted on MW.com.

Blessings be.

Paganus
Solemnis Solitaire
17:19 [5:19p] {pacific/'california'}
09/18/2006

Here is my weekly update.

My father has had a stroke. Right now he has no idea who anyone is really. I called an amulance yesterday morning to take him to ER. He didn't fight like normal.
He knew who I was off and on yesterday but today he thought I was my mom and I was his wife. He is really pissed at me (or my mom) right now for being there. He thought I kicked him out and that I had put him in a home yesterday. I explained to him that he was sick. My son in law was there the entire time telling him the same thing. It was funny in a lot of ways in that some things he said was from the past and comical.

It is a grown childs nightmare. I have to hope that he snaps out of it and is back to a little normal or our life as we know it will change big time. I did the phone calling last night and had calls up till 4am. I am exhausted. I have a mound of work piling up, studies incomplete and a messy house. Is it the weekend yet????

Tonight taking the kids (little ones) over there tonight to see him. If they get upset they will be taken out. By his noot knowing them it will be terrible but there is a chance he might know them.... I already discussed this with them so they know what to expect. Well as much as a 6 year understands. haha Keeping fingers crossed......

Just a weird time really. With terrible events there has been truly wonderful events. Balance I guess always comes in our life no matter what happens we must see and feel it.

I did something while in the hospital that later my mentor asked how it felt to be god-like. Kinda hurt my feelings yet he had a point.....Like I said gotta do what we gotta do. Hope nothing happens as a back lash. haha

I am glad that my spritiuality is cement like. As it has and is helping me through this. I see it as a passing of life experience. In our life we must face the cold realties that we our parents and our children do not live forever. When it is time for a life changing event we must open our eyes, ears and hearts to what happens. There is no fear of what may be coming only a tinge of saddness of the prospect of having to let go and say a final good bye at one time or the other.

Anywhozer my boozers, I have to make calls and shit like that.........

Until Then

Mistress R

Another week is over and gone. Thank God (I know which one) for that. I just hope that next week is a little better for everyone.

Paganus: Hmm, maybe the energy you were feeling was simply your own for the thoughts of 911. Not an overwhelming sense of doom, just a flashback as it was nearing the anniversary date. Seems a lot of people are feeling that. It is purely saddness or a grieving that is not finished by the attack on our country. Senseless attack at that which makes it worse for those survivors.

I dont know just a thought. :) 

Anyway, going to kick back and do very little this weekend. I do have a few articles that need to be written for other publications other than MW. Now I regret taking it on but seemed right at the time. haha I am grateful that the latest deadline is Tuesday do I have all weekend to get them finished. Already have two completed. Woohoo dance here.

Should work on the sites if I have time and energy. This cold is something else. Feel like death warmed over during the day and then at night feel pretty good. Weird. haha

Quest: Maybe you should not have under-estimated what I am able to do. I was a little taken back by your comment. Not everyone knows what anyone is capable of doing-no matter how close they are. :)
With the new techniques and practice, well it just adds to what I have been able to do. I guess you could say it refines it to a point that the energy being focused is a lot more capable of entering into those places without the sense of being. Interesting technique that is for sure.

Anywhozer, guess I should find something to do. haha

Everyone have a great weekend

Blessings & Greetings!

I am here at the 'Cybernetic-Cafe'.
I may not be back here till Thor's Day - the 14th.

It is the Fifth Year After 9/11.
I am getting - only today - this very sudden, urgent and
quite strong 'sense' to go very quiet and lay very low for five days.
Not certain why.
I know that to ignore a 'message' 'sending' is very serious.
I am not going to ignore this 'sending'.

I cannot ask that You All do the same as I am.
I can however ask that You All be very careful
and very cautious.
Something very dark may be about to happen.
I cannot say what it may be.
I cannot even say if it is even going to happen.
I am taking no risks or chances.
That much I can also You to do.
Take no risks or chances.
Perhaps - in My own very small way - I can help
prevent something from happening.
I do not know.
Perhaps Yes - perhaps No.

I'll be back on the 14th.
Or as close to that date as possible.
I still wish I knew why I am being told to do this.
This does not make much logical sense - even to Me.
That does not much matter.
I'm going to follow 'instructions'.
Even if I may feel like an idiotic fool doing it.

So thus it was -
So thus it is -
So thus it be.

Take Care.
Stay Safe & Secure.
Remain Very Careful & Cautious.
Remain out of the Sun and the Rains.
Remain Out of Harm's Way.

Paganus
14:23 [2:23p] {pacific/'california'}
09/08/2006

Blessings & Greetings!

The MW site(s) are back up.
Everythng seems to be working again.

Paganus
16:58 [4:58p] {pacific/'california'}
09/07/2006

Yep, MW and all relating sites are STILL down. Yep, I am pissy about it. See the bad thing is when the site (mw) is down I receive no emails. Which of course now into day 2 puts me that much further behind in answering anything. Unless of course those lucky ones that know my other email account for contact. haha

J. forgot to call the server company yesterday to sort it out. That REALLY chaps my hide. Oh well that is what vasoline is for I guess :)

Other than the sites being down everything is ok on my end. Woke up early this morning and thought I would get a head start on working. Yea right. haha My cold is actually getting better sooner than normal. Still blowing my nose and coughing a bit but feeling better.

We are on a warming trend. Going to be in the 80's for the next few days. Cold this morning. Feels good though. No complaints from me. haha

Tomorrow is Colts 12th B-Day. Cake and party. WooHoo

Well my dears that is about all from me. Just wanted to clarify that all is well. Site is sick but we are fine

Quest: in answer to your email. Yes, I was there and you were correct. Tried something different and you confirmed. I will explain more in an email

Blessings & Greetings!

Paganus Greybeard here.
It may only be My unit here at the 'cyber-cafe' but
I am getting a message that "Firefox cannot find server.".
I was attempting to log on to MW.com.
I even went over to the Mamma search engine.
Same result there - same message.
As I said - this is quite possibly only a glitch here
at the 'cafe'.
I am getting messages that this unit is infected with the
newest and latest version of a trojan worm.
So this may only be My  'local' glitch - and not either MW
or the servers MW uses.
The worm is identiified as being able to allow a remote attacker
'backdoor' access to perform various malicious actions.
I keep getting this bottom of the screen pop-up that I cannot
x-out.  It just keeps popping up.  Very irritating.

Let's go back and see if MW.com is up.

Paganus
13:55 [1:55p] {pacific/'california'}
09/06/2006

At least we are over hump day. Looking forward in the week being over and done with. With that another perk is it is a nice three day weekend. WooHoo! I will be able to (yea right) sleep in and not have to wake up at the butt crack of dawn. This morning was the first morning all week I did not over sleep by15 minutes. haha Of course I had phone conversations over by 7pm or so and fell asleep by 10 pm. So this is what getting normal sleep is????

We are having storms here. Looks and seems like fall/winter. I am loving every moment of it. Brings forth more energy than the blasted sun and heat. Although I shouldn't really complain summer here was nothing like CA. Not to bad, but there were a few days that was miserable. Humidty is terrible. In a few days we will be here a year. Doesn't seem possible. Time flies. So many things happen in a year, bad/good.

Our jamboree starts today. Yee Haw! haha With the rain I do not know what they will do with the parade and the likes. We shall see. Of course there will be pictures. See if I can find a hunch back carnie. haha

Had a few interesting events in my room and the stairway. House must have yet another thing to either say or tell me. Have to wait and see. Waking me though is a no-no. haha The other morning there was a knocking at the door, Star was barking at it. Sounds good? Well, it would except that there is no door on my room. haha The good thing is that it woke me up and I was already 10 minutes over sleeping. Had to laugh. Only the dog and myself heard the knocking. Great alram clock. haha

Been working on the Astral Plane more and more. The excercises given are wonderful. Loving it

Life in general is not to bad. Personal and business is looking brighter and happier so not many complaints from me----YET

Well, well, well, Renegade you are so nice to eat crow. All I can say is Told you so. haha
Yes, there are more upcoming challenges. I admit that I am not looking forward to those. Yet, in the long run if it haults some small crisis we are all happy. Time will tell on this. Besides, what is time to a fool?

Not a lot going on out of the normal. I have a new watcher in my home. Just decided to arrive and I guess is not ready to leave. It shows itself with white and blue energy and just walks near me. Kinda cute. Although I will admit that at times it is to bright and bugs me. haha
It is not disturbing the balance here so let it do what it came to do.

I have been using a different technique for dream walking and astral travel. After a month of training, actually following directions it seems to have produced remarkable results. It is for those that are more advanced but has the techniques for those that are just starting. The only thing that took me a while is to re-learn small things which they ask you to do. I am impressed with the program actually. Enhanced what I normally do so you can't go wrong on that. I have gained a new guide by this also. He came as an invitation. Took awhile to arrive, so I was wondering if it really would work. haha

This weekend will be mixed with business and pleasure. Business is crazy. To many irons in the fire. haha I am attempting to have a schedule of balance but it simply isn't happening. Still working till 3-4 am and sleeping in till 11-12.

Going with some friends to a Nascar thing in Michigan Sunday. I am not into this thing at all but thought hell might as well do it once and that way I can say that I have gone.Saturday will be cleaning and working. Some visitors coming over which will be nice. Having a little pow wow in the back yard.

House guest leaving SOON!
Guess I have written enough

Until Then

Mistress R